the imperfect perfectionist

*me *
Yanee
05/01
On my stereo: Justin Timberlake's Summer Love
Mood: Erratic

"Aye"
indie rock, alternative, pop rock: smiles: hugs and kisses: soccer: chocolates: Nike: teddy bears: touch rugby: babies: rock-climbing and bouldering: soft and pantene-smelling hair: my well-worn Levi's: Adidas: white, blue: short nice hair: Elmo, Oscar the Grouch and Cookie Monster:

"Nay"
veggies: swallowing pills: high heels: skirts: not knowing what to do: mess:

*wishlist *

a bit more freedom
PSP
new laptop
more clothes, for goodness sake!
new phone
an orange scrambler
makeover my room

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

i met them yesterdae nyt. Sat at the back of the double decker bus. Passed the nano to them. Sat away from them. I want so bad to be with them. Wanted it so bad. But..

To whom it may concern..

I faced away from you, turning to the comfort of the darkness outside but i cannot run. The reflections on the glass pane shows you guys. you had an arm around the other. For a second i wanted to be B..to be the one so close to you..i chided myself. Im part of them no more. That im sure. For i was given no reassurance from you that you love me anymore.

Yes..these overflowing tears are juz the feelings of being rejected and should i say...jealousy?? im sorry..im at fault. i should have had the courage to ask you all this while if you still loved me lyk you did before..it is obvious you no longer do..wad with your busyness and other more important people at your skool..its not ryt fer me to barge ryt in and tell you to stop all contact w other people juz so to be with me..you wouldnt want it and neither would i..

Yes..these overflowing tears are because i dunnoe where i stand in your life..am i that new shiny ring on display or that old forgotten one lost in the park?

Yes..these overflowing tears are the results of pain and heartache you unknowingly caused. im wasting my tears away on someting that oredi happened and that cannot be turn around.

Yes..it feels like i lost you.

From you-know-who

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<~ perfected ~>
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