the imperfect perfectionist

Monday, November 20, 2006

So, i want to talk about yesterday's big big surprise for Mum's birthday but since i haven't uploaded the pictures, i shall push it to another time till it's uploaded and i'm free. Let's talk random today shall we?

To start things out, my o levels finally end tomorrow!!! Muahahaha! But since i'm booked in the morning, i can only slack in the afternoon. Crap. Anyways, there are plans to go to Vivocity and swimming tomorrow with the gang after the 1 hour long Science Paper 1. Hmm... We'll see la. Cos i also got other offer. :) Oh by the way, i've got some lobang at some Adidas and Nike branches. Gotta call them to ask for vacancies. Yeay! Hopefully can get la. At least, i can have extra income, should i need to splurge... i mean save... on some stuffs. So yeah... Oh oh, then there also the plans of having a chalet in January. WHEE! I cant wait. I'm kinda multi-tasking now by checking out the rental rates and vacancies, so that's why this entry has not been posted since 11am this morning. :D

I'm gonna make sure that the chalet will work out cos it is our last year together and i've never really really has a proper chalet. I mean, i have but this time, it's gonna be big ya know? Yeah... so fingers crossing, it will work. Now what else... Oh yeah, plan to start climbing again. I think i'll call some friends to go along, plus Azrul is interested this time too. Then... There's that street soccer competition next Saturday at *scape. Can't wait for that too.

It just struck me that if i want to work these few months, then how am i gonna do all these stuffs? Haha. Beats me too. So i will try to go around all this while holding a job. (In the first place, must have the job first la. So yes yes. Must wish for an opening in Adidas. Yikes...)

So that will be about it for the things i plan to do. Since i'm done with that, let me say something about what's been happening lately in this house of mine.

First of all, my house has been turned, literally, into a safe haven for all kinds of people. You want to call it a boarding home, short-term loaning centre or even counselling centre also can. Because why? At any time, any situations, these people will suka-suka knock on the front door and come crying and complaining to Mum about their problems. This will happen with the presence of a bag filled with a week or two's worth of clothing. So i probably won't be at home when they come but when i do get back, i find my room turned into a guest room. Great. I don't really mind if it's not the period of time when i'm not taking an exam, but i am now! And i need to study in the comfort and privacy of my room, for crying out loud. But never mind, i close both eyes and let them use my room. But now, it's too much already.

For example, some people will have their own problems with their spouses and fight here, hit there, shout here, curse there. Then, their children will come running to Mum who will willingly take these kids in with open arms because they say that they are too stressed and upset to be at home. Fine. I can understand their predicament, but then, their parents should have the right sense of mind and manners to actually come and take back their children when things have cooled down yes? NO! And to top it off, they have the cheek to actually call my house and and let it slip that they are going out to the freaking beach with the remaining family members because they freaking feel like it.

Doesn't it just freaking gets to you when people take advantage of the natural human nature of being kind and understanding when all you will get is a bite on the ass? Fcuk.

Ah... Kan dah maki...

What i've learn from all these? Apparently a lot from Mum's conversation with Mimi.

" Kiter ni tolong orang, tak mengharap ape2 tapi ade la adat siket kalau yer pon. Ingatkan, dorang ni sume boleh masok akal. Bukan satu kali, dua kali... dah berape banyak kali. Orang slalu cakap, kalau tolong orang akan balik kepade diri kiter la kan? Hah. Mcm gini ker? Dah lah... Lain kali, kalau mcm gini, buat bodoh aje. Ah... Kau nak terlentang tepi jalan raye ker... Kau nak gaduh sampai mati ker, kau punye pasal la. Dah tanak masok campur lagi."

Which roughly translates into my mum feeling very angry and letdown by the fact that she has helped these people loads of time, but they are taking advantage of her now by firstly, perpetually doing the exact same things that they have done which led to their problems in the first place and secondly, not even a breath of gratitude to her. Ungrateful baskets. Mum said once to me that she really does not expect anything in return but she knows that if any of us are in trouble, nobody, absolutely nobody, will help us the way she has helped them. Which turned out true by the way.

What puzzles me is that no matter how much anger or frustration Mum vents on me on how people are treating us, she stills take them in and house them as though it is a sleepover for them. Be it a close relative or even a friend, a day or even a month, Mum will always be the answer many turn to. Which i find both disturbing and comforting. Disturbing cos she seem to attract people with major problems in their lives but comforting cos she always work things out for them somehow and these people actually trust her with their problems, meaning Mum must be quite important huh.

That's why i suppose i went the extra extra mile to do up a special surprise birthday party for her, complete with the big cake, candles and presents. Seeing the cake and us around her, she smiled her sweet smile and immediately interrogated us on when and how we bought the cake and made everything so secretive. It took a lot sei. Just buying a present was difficult with her calling to ask my whereabouts. :)

By the way, i got her a special mug and a fridge magnet. Azrul and Dad got her this cut-throat expensive brooch from Chomel and Azril contributed in the cake with the three of us. When i gave her the presents, she did the one thing which i didn't want her to do on her special day. She cried, of all things. Hahaha. I looked at her and like want to cry as well but held it in cos it was supposed to be a happy day anyways. So yeah... She said, it was the first time that we have done anything so special and touching for her and looking at my gifts (MY gifts) , she couldn't help but cry. :)

So after the jokes, flashback stories and cake-eating, we decided to go to Mustafa to do late night shopping, but in the end, since we went out kinda late, we settled for a late night supper at Bedok Corner. Whee~!. We had loads of seafood and we were so full that we had to walk abit before we took a cab back home.

So it turns out i actually talked abt yesterday huh? So i shall upload the pictures another time then. I made the best surprise yesterday. So so happy that it turned out well. Imagine me, Azrul and Azril running around the house, getting the cake, candles and presents ready while Mum was in her room for 3mins, changing from her work clothes. Damn, we ran. LOL.

You are always in my thoughts because you are my Mother
And always in my heart, because you are my friend.
Happy Birthday Mummy...
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Yanee

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